Monday, 7 March 2016
QOTW #5: Being Light
"Being light" and hope is something really important to me, it's kind of my mantra, what I put in the center of my life!
I had a time in my life when I became my pain. And because all of me was pain, I started to focus on everybody else who might have needed help and left all of my problems hidden. Then I realised I was only hurting myself, and I wanted to change it. So I started to work on it. On that time, I was broken, and I kept complaining about everything I'd been through. "If I hadn't..." became my most said sentence. "If I hadn't been through all of this stuff, I wouldn't have all these problems now."
I eventually took a more positive attitude, but there was something I was still wrong about. I kept saying that because I was broken, I had to mend myself before being of help for others. It doesn't mean that I didn't want to help any more. It means that I thought I wasn't... qualified.
I thought, innocent me, I would heal completely. But that never happens, does it? Even if we get over it, there are always scars. And that's good; they are part of ourselves, and we have to embrace them. I also feel like even if we might be hurt, we can still help. If we wait for ourselves to be completely out of it, we might be waiting forever. We have to keep doing things. It isn't "help yourself or help the others". You will always need help, and the others will always need help. The importance is in finding a balance.
In late December, I was in kind of a meeting, and all 7000 of us lit small candles. It was beautiful. But before this happened, when I was given my candle, I broke it while sitting down (I'm just that clumsy). And I was mad at first, but then I realised I was like that candle. Small, and broken, but still willing to give light. At least... willing to try. I think this is what's important, in the end.
Do you have any quotes you'd like to see my viewpoint on? I'd love to talk about your favourite quotes! Also, on Friday I have a collab with Rosie coming up and I'm really excited about it! Make sure to come and read it! ^^
A big big hug!