QOTW #14: On Birthdays and Loneliness

Hi there beautiful people! How are you today? As you know, I'm currently on holidays in Italy, so I haven't been able to use my computer until right now! I'm sorry if I owe you comments!

I was going to write a "Day in the life" post, I had my photos ready and everything, but... it turns out today is my birthday and it led me to a lot of thinking I thought I could share with you.

This quote is very important for society nowadays. As someone who works with children I can say they grow up too quickly. They don't stay as kids for long enough, they miss that opportunity. And speaking for myself, I always try to have something kid-like in my heart, like the excitement for things, the will to be active all the time and not lose a single minute... I always, always try to look at the world through the eyes of children, and it becomes a bigger, scarier and way more wonderful world.

This year, my birthday doesn't come at an exactly good moment for me. A few days ago there was a concert I went to with my friends, and I felt really, really lonely because they all seem to have someone better than me to go with. This has been happening for a while, and I always leave it for the next day and then it doesn't seem that important. But it hurts too much and happens too often for it not to be a concern. I can't conceal it any more.

I know I have moments when I'm better and moments when I'm worse, and I accept it. I know I've been way worse than I am right now. But I still have that voice in the back of my mind telling me I'm not enough. And God, it hurts. I know it's not true, I swear I do, but it's still there.

This is not a "poor me" post, don't take it like that. It's just some thoughts that came to my mind. I will be better and I know it. But some times, loneliness just takes over and some factors pile up and it only makes matters worse. It's okay for that to happen. And it's okay for us to feel bad. Suffering is human. And suffering means it matters, it means you're feeling, you're not numb.

What wouldn't be okay would be to give more power to that voice. We're human and we feel insecure about ourselves, so little voices are bound to come. Those voices aren't what matters. What matters is how you act upon them, if you allow them to control your life or you don't. That's what ultimately affects your life.

I have many great pictures I can't wait to share with you, and... a LUSH haul coming soon! I went to the mall next to where I'm staying and I swear I screamed when I saw the shop. I rarely have the opportunity to go when I'm home! I've decided my present to myself will be a bag of LUSH goodies ^^ And what better present could there be? (Apart from a pile of books which may or may not have been ordered on Amazon!) Any new products you've tried lately and loved?

Have a great week!

A big big hug,


Acqua